One Day Poem by Paul Christopher Robertson

Broken melody within my heart softly kills me
Slowly life escapes me
Love never comes but the pain is always here
Waiting on the day when everything is going to change
All I know is that it’s not today
Looks like the pain is here to stay
It’s the only thing I know is real
Apart from that voice in my head screaming KILL KILL KILL
It says it’s the only true escape to take that knife and ram it in my throat
But I’m not so sure
My heart is still waiting on that ever illusive day
As my hope slowly fades away
My mind always wonders a stray I hope it comes back one day
I can’t tell the difference every day is the same
Just another knife in my back
I thought today could have been the day or was that yesterday
I’m running on this pain I hope it runs out one day
But as I say they’re all the same
Even Christmas this year was just another ordinary day
I’m surprised I even got to see Christmas again hope this was my last
Maybe I’ll listen to myself soon I just don’t know
I believe in God I’ve seen life’s change
But not mine only for one day but then I messed everything up again
Now I’m hoping every day was my last
because not even I would want me
So why would God or anyone else