November 22nd,23: 15 Poem by Arathy Nair

I’d rather float in the sky,
Than touch down and stand on my feet-
Because the sand underneath is slipping away.

I’m trying to hold on and stand firm;
When the wind is blowing me off the ground;
I may fall down on my back.

Why does my heart ache?
When I know there is no time for tears?
I should move on, leave the ghosts of my past behind.

Maybe its because I feel so confused,
Maybe because Im scared to choose-
Right from wrong.I don’t want to get it wrong.

Every time I look at the mirror I ask;
Am I good enough? Did I do alright?
Am I doing right?
I smile back at me, hoping to reassure.
But an empty heart says I don’t have a straight answer.

Stop shouting at me, I know what I’ve done in the past,
And I wont repeat my faults.
I know you don’t believe me and somehow
You make me doubt myself-What could be worse..

Sometimes I feel like Im a Queen,
Sometimes I sit in a corner and cry.
Sometimes I don’t want anybody to be there for me,
And sometimes I feel insecure.
Future seems another world;
Which so far far away.

It is the light of hope which
I am trying to find in me.
I could barely see the steps ahead me.
But somehow, if should lead me
To the light.
I am hoping that I will find.

I put a smile on my face;
And let a twinkle shine on my eyes,
And walk forward.
Let my conscience be deceived that
Success is around the corner of the road I tread;
While my eyes try to hide that tear.

Oh, my fair Angel, hold me tight,
Never leave me.
Lift thy mighty wings and carry me away;
Somewhere far away.