Never Will Be Whole Poem by ESPN CHICK

Tears are steadily falling from my two eyes right here tonight
Didn't think the stupid tears would fall anytime soon
Felt like the tears just abandoned me like everyone else surrounding me
Screaming on the inside wishing I could run from my fears

Wishing I was someone I know I could never be
My dreams that I had all went down the drain along with all my hope
What must I do to restore
Restore and become whole

That's all I want but I know I will never be whole
I'm broken and focused to much on my dreams that will never come true
I can't let go of them they are attached to me
Beginning to think that being whole was never suppose to be a part of my life in the first place

Cause every time I turn around I hit rock bottom
And I'm back to where I began
Could it be that I was never meant to be what my dreams tell me
Just wish for once in a life time that I could decide my own things instead of everyone around me

All the voices keep coming back in the mist of the night
And I swear I've never felt so insecure in my life
Just wish I could be myself at all times
Feels like I'm living two lives

In that case I know I will never become whole
By the way I'm okay I promise with all my broken and bruised heart
There's no place I'd rather be then to be sitting here with tears steadily coming down my face
And wishing my life away



March 10,2008