Mother Poem by Shade Rodieson

When I was a little girl I actually loved my Mother.
She was an angel to me Loving, Caring, The perfect Mom.
But one day something changed in her.
I no longer thought of her as angel but demon.
Her blows hard and long always telling me that im worthless.
My mother on top of other things drove me to cut myself.
Embracing the pain I could forget about the bruises,
And watch the blood flow from my arm into the sink.
My mom still hates me but doesn’t hit me anymore except on occasion.
I embrace my mom as a person now but I can never love her.
I cant forget the years of hurt as she carelessly says were for my own good.
Now I write to forget her and my life but,
I sometimes find myself staring at a knife or razor blade
Just wanting to pierce the skin to watch the blood….