Misery Owns My Soul, But I Don’t Understand Why Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

I don’t know what it is about you
But the way you look at me makes me melt
I don’t know what it is about your kiss
But with out it my world turns dark
So here I go, tossing and turning
Trying to figure out what you do to make me so crazy
So here I go, searching and wondering
What you do to make me love you so much
Time has come down, days fall like stars
And tears are something I cannot forget
Yet here I stand, as loyal as ever
Inflect all the pain you’d like I won’t leave
Something about your person makes me dizzy
I want to figure out why you still give me butterflies
Figure out why I still care when you don’t read me
Figure out why I let you sit there and destroy me
Why I can’t understand why I care so much
When you can even see who I am
So I’ll sit here on my bed and think
About how much you really mean to me
And try to figure out why I can’t let you go
Why can’t I listen to the voice in my head?
Why do I always listen to what my heart has to say?
All that ever dose is cause me so much heart ache
Yet like a fool on your string you’ll pull me along
The ride is bumpy and I’m getting thick with bruises
Yet I don’t cut the line and let the blood pour
So many cuts are inflected upon me, yet all I can do is smile
The seduction in your voice intrigues me
Yet your kiss is poison that locks on my lips
Your touch is as cold as ice
And yet here I stand, once again
By your side, wishing you could see so much clearly
Wishing you could take the time to really see me
That what is set before you could be your greatest gift
But maybe I’m not worth it, maybe to you love doesn’t exists
So with a hand full of bad dreams
And a heart full of unfelt love
My instincts told me to run, yet I stayed
My mind told me you’re not good, yet here we are
Perhaps I love the pain of love, and the way it makes me feel
Perhaps I’m addicted to a none existent love
But I always give things a chance, I always let the best of me show
Cause you either take me as I am, you start walking
I’ll never change for anyone but I’ll give you a chance
I’ll see how fair this goes till I can’t stand
I’ll be covered in blood, and my vision distorted
Yet I’ll see what’s before me clearly
So pass your self for judgment and pray for the best
Redeem your self before me and then let me know
Weather to leave you behind and start over again
To pick of the pieces of a demolished heart and try to love again
Or stay with you and open your heart
Stop letting fear control you and make this work
Other wise you’ll loose the best thing you never knew you had
Welcome to reality and the choice placed before you
Do you care or don’t you
Do you want love or do you want lust
Make a choice before another comes to take your place
Other wise I’ll be your best mistake