I Don'T Know Who I Am Anymore Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

Forget me not was always my favorite game
Desolation was always my best friend
I grow a little colder as the days cross to weeks
My eyes get a little redder as the tears turn black
My once wonderful free wings now clipped and lifeless
My hearts cracked that its only moments before it shatters
What happened to the life I once knew so well
The life where I was so strong and never broke down
I can't hold on forever and I'm desperately reaching out for someone's hand
I can't see straight anymore, my vision blurry with sorrow
I just can't cut deep enough to stop my emotional pain
The blood dose nothing for me anymore
The crimson reflects a person who I no longer know
A person who I cant seem to understand
Is It weird that I don't even know my self anymore
I stop in the metallic liquid and shatter my distorted image
The scars are so visible now so why put up my mask of deception
I'm sure everyone can see threw those pathetic lies
My hands shake with the sorrow that pulls at my heart
The trigger to my undoing so close to my head
Save me before this pain consumes me
I cant do this alone, will you only give me the push I need?
Will you come and rescue me?
Before I jump face first in to my fire of emotion
Lock my self up in all this confusion
My hands have gone numb as my eyes turn to the darkness
Clouds steal my soul away and then distant screams a heard
The past haunting me all over again
Following me like I'm its sick toy
I'll destroy my past and bring up a brighter beginning
The only fear I have is never winning