Mind Of A Phoenix Poem by Rikki Giovani

It was a dark and stormy night.
The sky was pitch black and the clouds were red as crimson.
I was walking down a dark and desolate road.
I had been running for most of my life it seems.
I felt like I couldn’t run anymore.
It felt like; my past, present, and future were catching up to me.
I needed to face my demons.
I knew that if I kept running, it would only get worse.
I had to face my demons head on.
It was the only way for me to move on.
In that moment, I realized what I feared the most.
It wasn’t love, commitment, not even being alone.
What I feared above all else was myself.
I feared getting close to others so I pushed them all away.
I feared love because I didn’t understand happiness.
I feared myself because, I felt like I was the root to everyone’s problems.
Because of my life thus far,
I felt I felt I was not worthy of happiness.
But now I see there is nothing to fear and I should embrace life,
Through all its glory and pitfalls.

’12, May,2008’