Love Excuses Poem by Tebogo Angela Poen

In awe I stand,
Looking at this awesome, handsome guy
Trying to give me some love
But because of some awful issues that I haven't dealt with in my life,
I cannot let him


I know I owe him some love back
But I don't wanna give it to him summed up with this so called 'my life'
So I refuse to let him in
He can wait outside at the gate
While I'm in here trying to fix my life

I don't know how long is he willing to wait
I don't want his love to all go to waste
And the last thing I want is hate
I admit, I'm too much to tolerate
It turns out it's already late
And I won't shift the blame
He's been nothing but a soul mate
But how do I let him into this state?
How do I reveal my mistakes?
He's the right guy to date
But his love is now starting to fade
Up up and away it goes
He's now starting to hate loving me
Or even worse, hate me because he loves me
U know that kind of hatred?
Gosh.. what did God create?