The Tears Of A Silenced Victim Poem by Tebogo Angela Poen

They call it a sensitive issue to talk about
When it’s so easy to think about
The biggest elephant in the house
We carry on living and trying not to go there
For what reason, I don’t know

I’m so mad cause nobody wants to hear it
So mad cause we live in distort reality
Pretending to be all perfect, all flawless
So that people won’t talk
Yet we die inside
Because we are too scared
Too scared to overcome the fear

Wait until I open up my heart
and pour it all out, before you call me all perfect
And you’ll realise that I’ve just been quiet
I chose to be the silent victim
Chose to go “all strong” about it, as they put it
Chose to die inside, while smiling on the outside
Chose to give you the wrong impression
That im all good, all is well

But everynight I go to bed I promise you
It’s the first thing that comes to mind
The first thing I visualise
The first question being “why me”
Even though I did promise God that I shall never ask that question again

Waking up from a wet pillow every morning
Showered with tears
But hey…. Since nobody wants to hear it
Since everybody has turned the blind eye
I shall keep quite and not say it
Though it’s eating me inside
But I know it can happen to anybody
We just need that somebody to shout it out loud
For everybody to hear
And be aware!