Just A Facade. Poem by Bella Hoeiriis

Just a facade.
Everybody think that your this smiling pretty girl.
They will never understand, they will never could help.
It will always be me, the only one who can help myself.
Feeling that your blood is lonley.
Feeling your heart beat, but not really anyway.
Try too figure out a way to the next day, about, how can i smile without a tear?
How can i fight resist these feelings in me?
How can i go through the day without a lonley single tear?
If nobodys would never understand.
Would i then have to help myself?
Try too cut my feelings away, delet them with pain.
Taking the pretty little innocent smile on.
Making everybody belives that your happy, that your going to live your 'happily ever after'.
When i know, that i never will find the true love.
That everyone things that they found her or he.
But still feels deep inside your body that your missing a little thing.
Dream nightmares, and your wife or husband can't help.
Wake up screaming in your pillow.
Will i ever live a day, without all these thoughts?
Without all the tears, and screams?
Would i be tired of the life, think that the best way, would be, disapear.
Or would i found a solution?
A way to live.