It's A Heartache Poem by Neo Patricia Monamodi

Whether I love him or not
Who cares if it all rots?
Whether he tell the truth or lies
Who cares about the whys?
Whether he loves me or the other
Why on earth should I bother?
It’s all a heart ache

Whether he has love for me or he doesn’t
And I’m not saying he mustn’t
Whether he thinks off me or not
Soon he might be out of my thoughts
Whether or not he believes me
What different feeling will it be?
It’s all just a heartache..

I don’t want to feel anything anymore
Every now and then it leaves my heart sore
Whether love or hate
What difference does it make?
I used to think it’s me he misses
That thought left my heart in pieces
It’s after all just a game of heart aches

Thought I’ll exchange with him wedding rings
Share with him love, kids and other things
I dreamt that it’s him I would marry
I all these feelings I have to burry
What the hell is the point of it all
You lift your hopes only to later let then fall
Love is just a chain of heart aches

What’s the point of these feelings?
They all breed the same results
Wish I could change my face, my life and my heart
My love for him was true and faithful
Who cares he thought it was just a lie
Love is just a castle of pain!
I really do not care anymore

This heart is bruised
My stupid, naïve, loving heart is broken
This face is crushed, and my hands calloused
Give me a new heart to love again
A new face with at least a smile to be love anew
A new mind that still believes in decency cause I don’t
Otherwise let me die, my heart is dead after all

16 February 2010