Is This A Dream? Poem by Crystal Garcia

I walk around confused and lost; I don't know where I am. I hear everyone around me talking, but I can't understand what they are saying. I look around and see everyone around me crying. I can also feel the sadness inside of me, but i don't know why I am feeling this way. I start walking into his room and everyone turns around to look at me. I can see they are trying their best to tell me something, but their expressions are hard to read. I keep on walking, then I finally see him lying in his bed. I look at him and i can feel my eyes water up; Everything around me seems to be in slow motion. Everyone is trying to comfort me, but i feel numb. I hold his hand and tell him not to go. I tell him how much I need him, and that i love him. Everything starts to feel real and the numbness has gone away. I can feel everything i am trying to block out. The tears wont stop falling, and the pain wont seem to go away. As I watch him take his final breaths, all I could do is close my eyes and think of me and him together. I can hear his voice clearly in my head telling me how proud he is and how much he loves me. I can feel his arms wrap around me and kiss my forehead. When I open my eyes, I see that he is now in a better place. I pray to god and ask him to tell my grandpa thank you and that I love him too! ! !
Jan.25,1935~ Jan.30,2010