I do not know how I would be able to look you in the eyes and say that it's ok.
When really it's not.
It's like being shot and saying it did not hurt.
When to be honest it hurt worst then you could imagine.
It felt like I was dying but being forced to live.
My body ached from the inside.
Little to no expression on my face.
Hands shaking like someone who can't use his hands.
Have you ever lost someone you loved?
Do you remember how that felt?
It would have been much easier for one of us to die.
So that every time I saw your face I did not have to continue to die over and over again.
Maybe if someone died the pain would go away.
Maybe I would be able to smile for real again.
Maybe I would learn to love again.
But nobody is dead,
Life has to go on.
I have to learn to love again.
I have to find the strength to keep moving forward.
I have to make things better for me.
I do not know if I would ever be able to look you in the face again but hopefully I can learn to look at myself instead.
If eyes hard to say, close it and heart to speak if heart failed then hand to write if hand cant spell let time heal all these fragiles and till then, all wound be fine. it will be fine
'It would have been much easier for one of us to die. So that every time I saw your face I did not have to continue to die over and over again.' Touching lines.. We had all, or at least many of us, had gone through the same thing... Sometimes it makes us stronger and sometimes it breaks us really bad... Thank you for the poem Hannah...
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
My body ached from the inside. no expression on my face. It would have been much easier for one of us to die. continue to die over and over again. Life has to go on. I have to learn to love again These are the points i collected from your beautiful poem. Thank you for your thoughts, imaginations and expressions of real love and loss. Liked your poem very much. But at the end you show determination to live and to love again.. that is very positive and fine. Thank you for this message. tony