Interruption Poem by Annie Horrigan

I know I bother you
Constantly interrupting your life
Burdening you
When you already worry too much
I try to justify it to myself
I only say something
When I'm slipping off the edge
But you know what
Apparently that's pretty often
You say I don't bother you
But you have so many others
Who are so much better for you
I'm like your disease
But you're like my drug
I thought telling would help the pain
Really it just opened a different box
Full of different, new pains
That I have no idea how to deal with yet
And now I'm addicted
The sight of a message or email
Sometimes makes me cry
From happiness and relief
But it only lasts until you're gone again
I feel like I'm being too open
But I'm just telling the truth
It's what you all told me to do
I press them down as long as I can
That first two years of pressing
Still is being released
My life is fine
All of these problems
Are all in my head
But you say I don't bother you
And that's really sweet