Incredible Poem by Fran Spear

Nobody cares
as much as I - a misplaced adverb in life
for 'tenderly' -
I cared, fed, became a cast-away of myself
to learn how to be such a giver
fixer of the unfixable
They call it in 'AA' a 'dumb enabler' - nobody tried harder than I
Incredible.

Try Again?
The pain of self-induced abuse leads to catatonic bouts of doubt? ?
Is paying his electric bill so yours can be shut off? 'tenderly' - teacher of self to
accept the unacceptable -
Incredible.

The unfixable 'other one' and I had five to work with!
stays unfixed

'tenderly' -? ? I just could not buy it - ever

- the heroin that comes from grapes and it really does and is -
- never to see anybody really 'get off the stuff' - 50 years
of 'dry drunk' is still not the same as 'never did drink'
-care taker of the bottle - the drunkard is
denying the undeniable -
Incredible.

The abjects - unwelcome, unkept, unknown, undone

still pop like corks out of Champagne
(but out of respect for her stupidity) - they try to dress
for that 'tenderly' - dummy
is still trying- still trying the role of the 'tenderly adverb'
ignoring the obvious -

Incredible.

Then One Who Cares
Walt Whitman revealed -
(all you have to do is get outside of your own brain)
Sometimes, a care giver
fixer of the fixable
taught

'Things' don't change
We Do.
- mover of the immutable -
The 'Higher Power' sought, found, no tears - it
feels grand to not 'care' anymore for them
beyond the need to try for them
the incredible - myself - care for that
Incredible.