I'm Messed Up Poem by Laura arwen

My dream is
to get paid
for the poems
I write
I don't want
to fight my
obsessions because they
are a comfort
for me
I feel exhausted
of everything because
nothing can plenty
satisfy myself
I'm in an
inner conflict which
makes me have
many complications
Probably I need
to find new
hobbies to occupy
myself
I'm too guilty
of my disorder
and slowness
I must stop
to shop for
fun or to
please myself
I'm so excited
to spend money
but also angry
to buy unnecessary
things
I have an
hysterical attack because
I don't have
the peace I
want
I want only
have some rest
to recharge your
batteries
I don't have
to have thoughts
to have a
better concentration
The time to
be chaotic and
confused is ended