I Think Shes Breaking Poem by Brittany Marsh

i think shes breaking
i think shes breaking
i know im shaking
i know im shaking
strangled in her hospital bed
im strangled from these tears i'm fed
where she lays, demented in the head
i want to be there, but in fear
i dont see why she wont dropp this
is this real, after all these years
i wont show up as she reuested
i know, i know
but i have to respect it
yearning for a figure to dwell on
im losing myself as i go on
the amount of people i have lost,
countless numbers of hearts and souls
gone away like all the others
crawling away from this pain
i know who i've become
why cant this disphoria go away
i want to just be the same
not after her, she? , no way
i knew as i was younger
i would reach a day
where all that i've become
along my trip from hell and back
i would reach this day
all i want is change
to make life better
now and forever
i'm new to this world
counclings no glory
but i know i'm trying to
dispite all the blood
tremendously gory
mother
i've come to discover myself
i'm sorry your not in good health
i'm sorry i never tried
maybe if i did,
you wouldnt have to die
i know i never had the chance
to make a real difference
i know you dont want me
i know, i'm gay
i get it, but i want you to stay
you were never around
i know, im not 'church bound'
i know you said you hated me
i know you still do