I'M Not A Coward Poem by Sara Sulja

I always wonder what it would’ve been like
If I was still laying in your arms
I always whisper to myself about you
If I could rewind those moments
I always wish that I could’ve been stronger
If I hadn’t been such a coward

I lay in bed with these questions
Relying on the past
Hoping for the future
Wondering where time has gone
Losing control hasn’t been the best feeling

I always wonder if I called you now
What you would say
What you would think
If I just wanted to hear your voice
If I just wanted you by my side tonight

I have no control over my mind
Whenever I think of you
I think for what seems forever
And tears slide down my cold cheeks
It breaks what I have left

I just need you now
Tonight to hear your voice
To feel you by my side
I’d rather hurt then have nothing

I always wonder what it’d be like without you
If you were never again in my life
I always hoped to see you by me
If I could just take back what I said
I could erase the hurt I have created inside
I always wish I could’ve been stronger
But there’s no apology now
But I’m no longer a coward