I'Ll Still See You Poem by Cookie Matzii

I've seen you tear-up,
it's been the second time around.
It was always within a glib,
and to hide it, you try to breathe deep without a sound.

If only we were close enough,
to comfort you I could.
If only I wasn't that boring-a-person,
to chat with me, you would.

But, no, I'm not all that fun,
yes, that, I admit.
I don't talk very much,
that mistake I am known to commit.
I also know I'm not that pretty,
that smart nor that known.
My talents are just kept within,
most of them I've not shown.

But I know I've got a thing to prove,
though it may be just one or two,
I'm just hoping we could talk for a while,
'cause all these things I'm about to say are true.

So, yeah, I'm blaming myself again..
why am I such a dork?
All these things I want to say,
I better just shut my mouth with a cork.

And I see you almost everyday,
but each and every time we cross paths,
I try to stay out of your way.

It's been almost 4 months,
but nothing really new.
Nothing progressed nor bloomed,
nothing came out of the blue.

I haven't seen you for the day,
but my friends saw you, they say.
I regret not being open,
being indifferent and all.
But come on, you can't blame me.
You're the one who made me fall.
I never thought I could be like this,
being depressed it's so surreal.
I'm missing you, but why?
This pain, it's weird,
it such a weird, weird feel.
And so I went on,
the day just got even worse.
Here in school,
another boring discussion,
I even had time to make this verse.

Yeah, I'm still depressed.
Maybe I'm just being over-emotional.
That's stupid,
and sarcastic, I know.
So my friends tried to cheer me up saying,
'Come on, don't be sad. Don't worry. You'll still see him tomorrow.'

But then at the end of the day,
the tables suddenly turned.
They finally confessed,
'We didn't see him,
it was just a joke.', they told,
and inside me, under me..
A fire slowly burned.

I was a bit enraged.
After all, I got so carried away,
been very emotional, my mood totally changed.
I was depressed after hearing that stupid joke.
My friends turned out breaking my day.
But I guess they never thought I would react in that certain way.

Well, what the hell, just forgive and forget.
'Cause I know if we start a strife, that,
I'll regret.
By the way, they just tried to cheer me up,
thinking it would make me laugh.
They never thought I would take this joke,
with such a feeling so tough.

They made their point,
that, I'd appreciate.
We'll have more days of laughter,
after this, everything will just be a piece of cake.
But I admit they shook a little sense out of me,
maybe this depression helped make me see,
that I've been very over-emotional, stupid, sarcastic
over the past few weeks.
I've been losing myself slowly,
because of this love I'm trying so hard to seek.
My emotions, they so got me.
I just better let things be.
Let's just enjoy life,
everyday we'll get through.
I just got to remember there's always tomorrow,
and tomorrow I'll still see you.