Adversity,
hardship,
and load after load,
of just really hard shit.
I've been sailing the seas of woe,
of pain,
and of self-pity,
for as long and far as memory goes.
Through trials and tribulations,
one thing had been constant;
That after a while,
I could usually make out
through the fog,
through the tears,
and through the clutter...
some clearing,
some light,
even some color;
some semblance of hope and order.
But now
It feels different.
Doesn't feel like much at all at first,
but 'numbness' is not
the right word for this thing,
because anger is sensation,
as are chest-heaving sobs,
and the breaking of my heart.
so what is it then,
if it matters now at all,
that hovers over me,
and moves through me,
darkening me,
hurting me,
dulling the small,
slim slice of hope,
that hung in the distance,
like a water mirage,
to the soon-to-be dead
lost desert traveler?
Does this mean
that I've given up,
that I'm giving up,
that all is truly lost,
and that soon I'll be gone,
replaced by pictures,
by relics,
and by a few tears?
No,
I don't believe it means
that the end of me,
that the end of my years,
is now at hand,
but instead,
it signifies permanent loss,
and marks the start
of the end of the life
that I felt I deserved,
and once truely thought,
was so close at hand
that I could see it,
could almost touch it...
Those hopes I once had,
just within grasp,
slipped through the cracks,
Leaving me wounded
from trying to hold tight,
as my once lighted dreams
shredded my fingers
and fell still in the the night.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Avery well written and poignant piece, Myk. Thanks Peace
Thank you Kelly