I Am So Happy Sometimes Now/I Wonder Why I Am So Happy Sometimes Now Poem by Shalom Freedman

I am so happy sometimes now
I wonder why I am so happy now
Is it because I understand that I have already lived most of my life,
And I do not have that much time left,
And so, know if I am not happy now that I never will be?
Or is it because I understand
I might as well be happy as unhappy
As neither will change anything very much?
Or is it because I have learned to love and appreciate
That I still have
So many small abilities and pleasures
I have seen other elderly people lose
And know I could lose at any moment?
I don't know for certain
But as I write these lines now
Happiness comes again
And I thank God again
That I still go on.