Hollow Expectations Poem by Hikaru Etanaru

Why is it that, in a crowd of unfamiliar faces
I seek one that I have never seen before
Why is it that, in a sea of coincidental cases
I seek the one that full of unrealistic lore

What is it that I hope to discover
That will grant me freedom from hope
What be it that I hope to uncover
That will make me magically cope

When is it that I will stop overlooking
All that I have, to no longer be so blind
When is it that I will stop looking
Knowing there is nothing I can hope to find

Where will these unrealistic expectations go
When there's nothing good to hope for
When will these anxieties of mine know
When I have a hallow empty core

How can I face myself
knowing those lies I speak
For the truth lays unseen
While the time carelessly leaks