Guru Dhyanam-4 Poem by Indira Renganathan

No sooner I get into His vision
Than my mortal mind wakes up
Incessantly disturbing
My samsaric suffering..
I feel thrown down deep low
Unfit to reach Him
My I and its desires and their needs...

What words of excuse can be said..
Caught by the whale of inward sea
My psyche breaks down disabled
Heart bleeds letting out
unfulfilled desires..
Forlife on earth
How to be I-less
How to be desireless
How to unleash
The bond with life
With its pains and pleasures
But still remain in it
Neutral with peace

Ere they go blind
In eerie dark
Eyes of my conscience
Rescue me timely
Finding
That Lord of the south

Answerless life
This to be answered
On rungs of efforts
Albeit many falls
I rise to His abode

Looks not, speaks not though
Hope seems to build
Listening ears of His for me
My heavy hearted life
Mounting queries all
Unto His feet

Some day now
Or some birth next
Will I not be blessed
And answered
At this blissful moment
A ray of smile
From Him my heart feels
Thankfully
To that Lord Dhakshinamoorthy
For ever I salute, I bow a lot