Gone Poem by chelsi Ruffing

There in my darkest dreams
Everything is ok or at least it seems
I've choked back so many tears
losing everthing is one big fear
so many scary sighs
look into my stone cold eyes
you keep reassuring me
just to let it all be
I get so tired I just want to rest
I think I faild the test
happyness is a never
Death is so very clever
what a heartache to be alone
Even when your in your home
I want my heart to be heald
of corse you say ok you've dealed
I refuse to see it
I have a very dead and black spirit
This is not what you expected
but this is whats occurring
This feeling is very hurtful
breaking into two is very paineful
Strangers stabbing me with knives
Death is messing up so many lives
I'm just going to guit trying
My heart feels like its dieing
love was once somthing to treasure
now it can't even measure
I won't pretend to be ok with you
how didn't you know it to?
I don't have a hesitation to fail
I wish I could jump the rail
I'm a beautful mess
feeing of love is less and less
A heart ingraved on my arm
I caused my self alot of harm
My emotions are all fase fears
cryed way to many tears
tragedy to speek of this
At one time my attention was all his
I suppose I could strengthen whats mine
And say I'll be just fine
Abandonment is how I feel
only one person relates for real
she is very passionate at heart
she will be the one to play the part
i'm honered to hear her perspective
shes the reason i live
now you get what i mean
ill stand on the brige and lean
to fall to whats called the end
no more around the never ending bend
heres my last goodbye
please dont cry
one day we will meet
pain is somthing i will defeat
ill be watching over you
as i know you would be to.