Getting Past The Past Poem by chad fisher

Getting past the past is ever so hard for me...
Because the past was better than the present seems to be...
I'm trying to write until I have nothing left to say
When I can write about something brighter on a happier day
It's therapy, but therapy that keeps me stuck in the past
Because I'm wondering how long does this depression have to last
I'd like to move toward the future, with new friends, new goals and a new plan
A plan where it doesn't matter whether or not I am caring about you, a plan in which I am a new man
So that if I ever see you again, I could be free to be me again, and perhaps give you a smile
So that I can warm my heart, just knowing that I am me, and you are you, both hearts happy all the while
So that I may not care so much whether or not you like me, but only care if I like myself again.
So that I can just be, just be Chad... so that I can be past this pain I feel deep within.
Despondency, heartache, pain to bear... future is there waiting for me, sometime... somewhere...