Forever Falling 2 Poem by Trever Barlow

I can see myself thinking of her more than I should
I try shrugging it off,
try to forget it and occupy my mind with other things,
but when she continues to remain on my mind I find myself worried
worried that I am once again falling into old patterns
repeating my same steps
knowing mind and my heart aren't on the same page
and I'm not sure which to believe
but I do know what comes next
these innocent thoughts continue for weeks
until thoughts of her turn into dreams of her
then it becomes so difficult for me to think of her as only a friend
so hard for me to just be happy with what we have
part of me believes this could be great
but the bigger part knows that It will end
leaving me with nothing, just as I started with
again, I feel doomed to fall for her,
pick myself up,
and fall again for the next in line.
As always, damned to be falling forever.