Flaws In The Design Of A Butterfly Poem by Andrus Cassian

Belle, so starry; a growing mystery but you always meant love to me
a butterfly, please remain but I'll let you fly away when you're ready
It's suddenly slipped my mind what I'm supposed to say
this life is a roller coaster, an unpredictable disaster
but that's irrelevant to me
I'm more concerned with how much you mean to me
My words are absent sense
Our sun has set; will it ever rise again
my head is raised high with the hopes I've created
but it appears to just be the same as the lion upon its prey
Ended...ended...does it really have to be this way
the rain has yet to befall this day
but still a stinging, worried tear slingshots through my mind
I may feel the swift outcome of emptiness of again
tasteless, better, dull, ageless, without warmth
may you desire to disappear
Selfish, I realize how deep my thoughts persist
but two years time has intertwined my path with you
the reason I dare not question or you will vanish from me
I am aware of the flaws in my design
and I've come to terms with that I'm useless
a useless anchor in your path, but you're an anchor in mine
How long will this hold, I'm begging longer than it's meant to
I've savored every moment, making it a permanent memory
a butterfly eclipsing a rose petal, simply breathtaking
and breathtaking has it been to spend every moment with you
and remaining in my mind are the words of goodbye
in case I need them
but I refuse to say them
just let me hold your hand one more time
and feel your warmth against my stilled beating heart