Finally There Is No Hope Poem by laura random

Tears under my makeup
Desolation under my smile
Scars under my clothes
Pain under my pleasure
Sorrow under my heart
Lies under my lips

The pain, it hurts, it rips and tears
It never stops but I don't care
Never been accepted, never will
No one cares, no one will

I feel as if ‘fat' has been written all over me
I know they all talk about me behind my back
I can't hear them but the voices wont stop
Even when I close my eyes they're still there

Alone, anxious, afraid
This is what I've become
A blue heart with a cheerful face
My life full of lies and deceits

There's not one day when I don't worry about my weight
I barely ever touch the food on my plate
I wish I could close my eyes and it would all go away
I fear to fight another day

Enough is enough I can't take it anymore
Congratulations you've beaten me
You've ripped and beaten my heart
Now it can't be fixed any more

Finally I have given up
Finally there is no hope
Finally I have had enough
Finally I can't cope

So I take the pills to take the pain away
Nothing can save me now, I have grown weak
I have one thing to say to those who hurt me, why?
My hearts getting slower, I think its time to say goodbye