Finally Gone Poem by Matthew Jenkins

As I close my eyes, and thoughts drift,
A shadowy figure blurs its way through,
Murkiness turns to clearness, through the light,
I can see your eyes,
As beautiful as ever.
Alcohol has poisoned my body,
To allow you to poison my mind.
All I have is all I see, only,
All I see is you.
But to know that I don't have you,
Is enough to jerk me from my sleep.
The room was silent, and dark,
And lonely with me.
It's dark so I can't see my scars,
Silent, though your scream creeps through my mind.
All that ever was, I now know,
Because of my dreams, will never be.
It's enough to make me want to do it,
And the only motivation that I need.
To take away all this misery,
The pain I felt so long ago.
The silver pill on the table,
The metal bottle where it's held.
It's what will make my body numb,
And what will make my body cold.
I drink straight from the bottle,
And my throat stings with ease.
It's what I've put off for way too long,
Tonight I hold it off no longer.
Tonight it shall be done.
Another drink,
And my prescription is in my hand.
My prescription to this pain,
the one I put myself through so long ago.
As the barrel presses against my temple,
My eyes begin to fill with tears.
The trigger is pulled, and I fall,
The blood spatters on the wall.
Now the memories of you belong to the room,
I have become numb, my pain is blown away.
For once in my life, you are finally gone.
Finally I've been able to get you out of my head.