Eyes Of Pain Poem by Terry Biscamp

She looked at him…
And in his eyes,
Saw all the pain,
And heard his silent cries.
She turned away,
But he grabbed her hand.
Leaned in closer…
To try to make her understand.

“I wish that you would stay,
If only for awhile.
So I can feel my heartbeat again,
And remember how to smile.
I wish that you would sit,
And talk awhile with me
And lay your feelings on the table…
Set them out for me to see.
I wish I would’ve listened
To the many times you said you had to go.
I was so sure you’d be alright,
I’m sorry, I didn’t know.
All the times you’ve cried
And the nights you couldn’t sleep,
I thought it would pass..
I didn’t realize it ran so deep.
I’m sorry for not reaching out to you
When you needed me so bad.
I’m sorry for not showing you,
All the love I’ve always had.
If I treated you less than you deserve
And not been there for you
I’m so very sorry…
Please let me pull us through.”

The tears were streaming down her face,
As she listened to what he had to say.
She moved towards the door,
It needed to be this way.
She looked at him, it was so hard
To see his eyes of pain.
To know their life had fell apart,
It could never be the same.

“If I stay, my heart won’t be in it.
I would only be cheating you.
The love I have left is not strong enough,
And will not see us through.
I loved you once…
More than I can ever explain.
And I’m so very sorry
For causing you this pain,
But the times you turned away,
When I needed you there for me
Has hardened my heart,
Making “us” too hard to see.
Once, I would’ve done anything..
Just to remain at your side.
But, you never looked close enough
To see the love I had inside.
It’s not really me that you want,
When my love has been dying for years.
I’m not the same person I used to be,
I’m learning to dry my tears.
I’m sorry that I’ve hurt you
It’s not something I want to do.
But, I’ve got to start over, on my own
And learn to live my life…without you.
You will have a place in my heart
And there you will stay.
I will always remember you..”
…..And then she turned and walked away.

Outside in the cold,
She closed her eyes of pain.
She had finally found her strength…
Her old life…washed away with the rain.