Doll House Poem by Maria Sudibyo

The game has been played
The fun has been spent
But future can't be delayed
Now we should pay the rent

I want you to live without me
I want you to forget about me
Because I'm no longer lingering there
Because I'm not anywhere near

Hide me to cover with dust
Place me to befriend with roach
Until it piled in unidentified ruin
Until you can't distinguish the pain

I want you to go out without me
I want you not depend on me
Because I've done my part with that
Because I don't anymore care about what

Just turn your face away
Just notice my sorrow, nay
This lack of emotion starts making me crazy
This burst of jealousy won't let me easily

I want you to laugh without me
I want you to leave me behind
Because I don't need to be fussing of
Because I'm not anybody toll

We could always fall in the same loop
We could always find the routine problem
And it is not going any better
It will repeat over and over

I want you to dream without me
I want you to sing apart of me
Because I believe you will grow up
Because time will make a good divide

Don't make farewell more difficult
Don't twist hope with your words
It's already been complicated
It's already heart wrenched

I want you to wait without me
I want you not wish to come back
Because I'm tired to expect
Because I think I have enough

I couldn't bring myself inside me again
I couldn't stand another disappointment
It is the moment of getting by
Or it is only a lonely breakdown