Confusion In My Head Poem by michael billiot

I try to control myself an a daily
yet daily i feel more and more crazy
have i lost myself along the way
can i get back to that one happy day
I've begun to feel numb
is it cause I choose to be dumb
cause I love to feel joy
but hate to be annoyed
I don't know where I'm going anymore
hopefully I'll get a good rep-or
with myself and others yet I just don't know
how I'm going to reap if I've never sown
can you look deep into my eyes
can you count how many tears I've cried
I'm feeling alone i don't know where to go
I'm so cold feel so broke
can you see me in the darkness
can you say I'm heartless
I'm loosing myself every time i look in the mirror
I'm filling my heart with pure terror
i don't know what I'm gonna become and I'm afraid
will you walk away or maybe just take
my hand and lead me away
from the pain inside my brain
I just can't control anymore
i don't know if I wanna live no more
please show me another way
far far far away from my brain