Confessions Poem by david odiase

as a child i was scared of darkness
always thought vampires or some evil
would grab me unawares into them
so i dozed off in mom's wrappers

as a boy i made mistakes
letting down those i love
mom's crying beside my bed at 5am
saying'david why do u break my heart with shame

when i was left alone
i'd sit speaking to stars
praying for friends & future
singing self composed songs to Heaven

as a teenger i fell in love
waywards to parents advice
slaming door to mother's face
tearing her heart apart

neglected sister, dad and mom wished
childlessness than wasted sperm
so, i had dinner with God
roasted barbaque with snakes

as a youth i retraced steps
returning home a prodigal son
cooking rice in kitchen again
kissing mom & sister on cheek

yet my future is half made
kneeling to God night long fervent bed
ignoring lullabies from horrible october
watching my orange tree grow.

I was once small in mind
tying mama's wrapper like superman
now i must save the world alone
by making mom proud again.