Christmas Morning Poem by Rudy Rudolph

Here I am laying in bed on Christmas morning
Its the first time I have not wanted to get out of bed for Christmas
I don't
First thing I did when I woke up this morning was look at a picture of her
It sends so many thoughts to me and I get confused
I do
Why won't you let me in I ask myself on Christmas morning
Don't you love me like I love you, I wanna say you don't, but I have hope
I do
Oh sure I would love to be with you all the time and be loved by you
But if that doesn't happen, do you think I won't still be as close to you as you let me
do you
I have recognized you as my soul mate, the one God put here for me
For me to walk through the pearly gates together with for eternity
he did
If you don't feel this too, then what am I missing, what idiot am I
Do you connect with others as you do me
do you
Am I just a toy I ask myself on Christmas morning, how funny is that
No I gotta breathe, its hard to control my emotions when you say so little
it is
I wanna hear it all, know it all, but you don't want me to know much
I wonder if you stay quiet to protect me and try to prevent pain
i do
I wonder if your waiting for me to do something
I wonder if you love me
i do
Christmas morning
I Lay in bed
Thinking of you
Wishing you were on the phone with me
Sharing
Missing me
Loving me and sharing smiles on Christmas morning
And every morning