Change For Acceptance Poem by BrandiNicole Colbath

Being here, not having opened up to anyone
My life seems to have taken the place of everything that used to be important to me
No longer having the time of day for my family and friends
All alone at all hours of the day
And what Is It that I do?
Sit there in my bedroom thinking about all of the things i could have done differently
Would I change myself to benifit thouse that I love?
But I can only change if i posses the desire to all by myself
No one can drive me into doing something that I don't feel comfortable in doing

Why won't my father accept me for who I am?
Did I ever do anything to him that was worth all that I went through?
The only thing I ask for is that he will love me
I mean, I am his child, so he should cherish the time that he has with me
Because you never know what you have until it's gone
If I were to die, maybe then he would relize how important I am to him
If it affected him at all about my death
And if thats what it takes then Is It really worth It?
I swear that he doesnt even love me, because people you love you treat much better
He loves my brother more that the whole world, and I'm so jelious
What I wouldn't give to be Kalab

And he knows it too