Canvas Of My Heart`s Content... Poem by Inner Whispers

(Saturday, July 19,2008)

Have been into hand painting,
While music surrounds my room (Just Tell Me U Love Me by ENGLA) :
I got nothing in my mind but just to move my hands,
Allowing my thoughts to wander...

I mixed with no definite colours in my mind-
Easing both hands in circles...curving the details of my mind...
Slowly...nostalgic...passionately...full of emotions...
As I began to cry...pouring all my inner soul...
Caressing the canvas with indefinite colours of my heart's content.

So heavy...so lust longing...so tempting...
Thinking of each detail,
I didn't realize I am living in dreams;
Dreams of reality...Only a fantasy!

I didn't realize that my life would change,
Feeling something special with YOU;
But what is this? The truth is,
I will wake up again tomorrow looking to sun as it rises
but no YOU!

But found myself again holding on to music,
I only want to hear and believe;
It doesn't help, It really brings pain,
And how many more days should I be keeping in touch and then has no ending but pain?

I loVe to loVe...I loVe to share.,
I loVe to laugh even in simple things;
I loVe to be what I am!

When will I hold you tight?
When will I kiss and taste your lips?
When will I feel your intensifying breath,
And listen to your urging need and whisper of loVe?

When will you see my eyes,
Looking at you so intensely as I come nearer and your cheeks i touch?
When will I run my hand through your hair,
Mess them up and wrap around my hands on your neck as I tiptoe to wait for your kiss?

Circles...I moved my hands, allowing it to be free...
Feeling the smoothness and wetness,
Of the paint as I move into the harshness of canvas' surface,
Filling it with emotions...

When will YOU smell my merging breath,
My skin that glows into the glimmery moonlite?
When will YOu hear my heartbeat,
The rustling of my grief?

When will YOU see my satisfying smile,
And naughty winks of my eye?
When will YOU hear my small laugh,
When I giggle with your touch?

But all I can see are visions of loVe...
The pain lies to truths...Let it be..
And as my emotions fade, as my hands ease,
I wonder how my canvas looked like?

Hmn..I've created the most loving masterpiece of my heart's content! !