Caged Bird Poem by Craig Mize

Tell me why it seems like life isn't playing fair
Like a thousand tons is sitting on my chest,
I can't breathe, there is no room for air.
Steady praying to God, but he ain't answering.
I'm now wondering is he even there?
My mind is trapped in a state of confusion,
Living this lie of a life, its all an illusion.
Hoping one day that it will come to a conclusion.
But the pain it will cause!
Should I mash pause on my emotions,
Lock my sense of guilt in a cage and ignore the notion,
That people really do care. They don't feel my pain though,
They don't feel nor understand my suffering.
The suicidal thoughts in my mind is steady hovering.
What is coming over me?
I just want the pain to go away, I just want to be free.