Bub Poem by John Howard Davies

BUB
by John Howard Davies 6th. October 2016



Shades of grey blind my day, my ways and my existence
they perpetrate and never wait for me to try resistance
So say the wise, "it's no surprise no big deal to write home for,
what was has gone and it won't be long before you make different arrangements, "
What easy words that are said and heard by strangers and enquiries
A single note from a famous quote or a passage in a diary
a summers day when you came this way and walked and talked forever
when the wind blew cold but that time was gold and who cared about the weather
a flock of far off chirping birds two swans there in the water
the sun set fades and the moon parades it's soft and silver quarter
a laid down tree on a beach where we sat and threw some pebbles
as we sat and stared I caressed your hair and wiped away your troubles
now it's almost done and I'm left as one with this emptiness of purpose
I cannot ever see your face close to me and never once again will we be we
I can cry to the heavens and pray for your soul I can shout all I want but I'll never be whole
I can soak in deep sorrow and tear out my heart as the time drifts on by and we
grow further apart
We can't say we're happy or wishing we did, things that we planned for
and things that we hid
That face of yours searching for answers to say, you're not doing that right
no flipping way!
Well that's all gone with you, the laughs and the jokes
the drawings we made up and the Felixstowe boats
The sitting on stones watching the sea, me holding you and you holding me
The catching of dreams the dreaming of us
the cooking, the building the mess and the fuss
Our kisses are memories now only with me
and you my sweet darling are forever free
I miss what you were and I will for existence
and I'm not sure that I will go the whole distance
Your strength was my rod was my purpose and breath
now we have been parted by life and it's death
I'm not a God lover or believer in hell
those don't sit with me at all very well
I do believe life gives and then suddenly takes
as we learn living lessons by our stupid mistakes
I have to go on I have to be strong I have to find solace
in laughter and song
I have to remember what you were to me
and how you and your embers burn deep in me
I won't let your memory die now with you
but I'll keep them forever and keep them brand new
each new day I wake up you'll be there in my mind
never forgetting the fact that we did both shine.