Bloody Rose Rewritten Poem by Vianca Borrero

I stare at your back as you walk away
Tears dropp to the floor at my feet
As you get farther away it seems like your shadow gets larger
I feel it once again
That cold icy feeling of being left behind
I have nothing yet everything to say
The sun goes down and that fleeting wind blows
Its been hours but i just cant find myself to move
I just close my eyes and remember the good times
Those moments that made my heart feel like it was in my stomach
Those moments that made me so happy
Those summer nights that ended with us hot and sticky
Then creeps in those freezing moments
Slowly they creep into my mind
All those fights
All those tears
Remembering when i saw you
Sitting on the bed with the blade at ur wrist
blood seeping down ur hands
Onto your lap
Your face as you notice im their
Frozen at that spot
Your high pitched voice as you yell at me
Screaming
I just stared at the drops of blood
all i could do was ask
Why
The icy cold feeling fell over me at that moment
I see it through my eyes as if it was happening right now
I grab you by your shirt
I look straight into your eyes
Why are you doing this
You yell and cry
I cry and just keep asking why
You blame me
Your lonely
Tears fall slowly
I beg for you to stop
You promise to stop
Weeks went by
I start to notice things
Find a syringe in your things
Spoons start missing
Your body starts to get thinner
Your hair loses its shine
Your eyes
Those beautiful eyes the color of a deep blue sea
Their now dark and haunted looking
Sunken eyes
One night i walked in on you in the bathroom
Their it was
I finally got punched in the face with the truth
You sitting their
Rubber tube strapped on your arm
The needle just about to go into your beautiful body
All i can do is stare
You stare right back at me
I say stop its either me or that
I say dropp that needle right now baby
Take my hand
Choose me
Stay with me
I put my hand out to you
I stare into what was once the eyes i fell in love with
You look at my hand
You look at the needle
You dont look up
All i see is a tear fall
You stab the needle into your vein
Thats the moment you walked away
You turned your back on me
All i did was walk up to you
Kissed those once soft lucisous lips
Now all they were were cracked and hard
I looked into those eyes i once fell in love with once more
'Goodbye my love'
I turned and walked out of the bathroom
Walked out of the room
Walked out of the house
Walked into the night
Seemed like the Darkest night in my life
My icy cold feeling never left
One day
Months later
I saw on the news
Drug addict jumps off bridge dies instantly
That icy cold feeling envolped my heart
It slowly froze my heart over
From the inside out
I went to your burial
You didnt have family
You didnt have any money for a marked grave
The last thing i could give you was
A headstone
i stood over your grave
I sat down and stared at the last piece of you i have
Tears fall
I hugged your headstone
All my tears rolled down
they soaked your grave
I grabbed the rose i got you
Held it tight in my hand
Thorns cut into my hand
I didnt care
I tossed it onto your grave
Blood
And a rose
Thats the true last thing i gave you
It made you die and yet you never chose me
you ran away from me into its arms
Straight into the arms of the Grim Reaper himself
You died
My beautiful flower so full of life
You wilted before my eyes
Now my flower
You are the bloody rose