Biggest Mistake Poem by Annie Badillo

can you understand
the battle that i have with myself?
i fight it every night and
i fight it every day.
i even dream of myself in
battle clad armour.

you can not understand
the feelings of worthlessness
that i struggle with day
in and day out.

i know that i am not
good enough
but knowing that YOU
know i’m not good enough

is enough to kill even
the toughest
and most skilled
of warriors.

i am a loner
and i am a loser
but mostly i am just
sad. and angry.

because the biggest
most depressing
dissapointment in my life
is me.