Apart Poem by Joanna Pavlides

In your eyes
I looked for a glimpse of love
But disappointment gripped my heart
Because I couldn't read you any more

Out of fear perhaps
My soul has seized
The gate has nearly closed
anticipating a cold breeze

Your gentle smile
Has frightened me over sudden
In case it was for real
To again awaken that dream

The one we dreamt together once
When my spirit was part
Of your inner light
When you were mine

I was ready to fight
Raising hunger for your gentle touch
I kept saying inside
I have no right…

It took dozens of other pairs of eyes
To keep me miles from those arms
That once called for my embrace
And promised to never leave

But I have no right
I have to let you go
if that is your wish
Will you come back?

Those eyes never said no.