Another Angel Poem by Hannah Davies

I had a funny feeling
What was the test concealing?
The little blue line
Was a clear sign.

Andy didn't want to know
He had let his true colours show.
He forgot to mention he was already wed
As soon as I found out, the relationship was dead.

A choice I had to make
There was only one option I wanted to take.
A surprise baby on the way
I was planning on telling everyone on my birthday.

I was prepared to go it alone
Bring up a baby on my own.
I felt it was the right time
For my motherly instincts to shine.

I didn't want to tell a soul
Reaching 12 weeks was my goal.
I started feeling unwell
It was happening again, I could tell.

I tried to ignore the signs
Went into work as if everything was fine.
Tears started to rush
As I pulled the toilet flush.

The bleeding and familiar stomach pain
I knew I had mis-carried again.
I tried to keep myself together
Asked to go home as feeling under the weather.

I curled up at home in my bed
Hard to comprehend that another baby of mine was dead.
I didn't want to believe
But a later scan couldn't deceive.

I guess things were just not meant to be
Feels like someone's punishing me!
Maybe I'm not meant to have children of my own?
That it would be safer to be alone? ?

Another Angel will always be in my heart
And in my dreams we're never apart.
They can now join their sister or brother
Where they can both wait in heaven to be reunited with their mother. xx