Am I Lying To Myself? Poem by John Leo

Am I lying to myself?
I say that I don't like him anymore
But part of me still does
Part of me still wants to be with him

Am I lying to myself?
I say that I'm moving on
But am i really
Am i really getting over him

I know that slowly i am
But is that what i really want?
I think so
But then why am i having so much trouble

Maybe i am going about this all wrong
Or maybe I can't do this alone
Maybe i need to talk to him and get this over with
I should know myself Right?
Maybe i am lying to myself

I don't know
But it just feels so weird
I just want to be able to hang out with him
And not have to worry about my emotions

I need to forget these emotions
But i need to remember all the things he did for me
I need to take the part of him that i look up too
And focus on that
So then I don't have to worry about liking him
Because once this is over I won't have the same emotions
I will be able to just be friends