A New Year In A Night Poem by Matt Burgett

No longer am I sober
The vodka running through me replacing my blood
I know now that turning back is not an option
The sensation and feeling of cuddling is a distant memory

I start with a single shot
Going down like fire along with the tears
Feeling heartsick and distraught
I have a few beers

The streaking makeup runs down my face
Wile I wipe the tears from my eyes
The beers almost gone now and I drank an entire case
And no one even notices how I cry

Another gulp of Vodka slides down
Drunk by now it seems like cream
I ask if there is anymore crown
They say only in your dream

Loneliness and depression kicking in
Alcohol flows like water
And for some reason I am always forgiven
Unlike with the martyr

Pouring myself another shot
The razor looks so fresh and hot
I shoot down all of what remains
All while feeling sharp to the point pains

My tears fill the glass up to the line
finishing that as my last
All my body goes numb
I pass out with the bottle like a bum

My dreams come upon me fast
Deep visions of you and me
Holding hands together
Me making you happy

I brush it all past me
Knowing I cause only hurt
That deep in my soul
I'm not who I seem to be

Suddenly a sight of the future
Is approaching me fast
I feel all your love
I hope it only lasts

A splash into reality I come forth
I realise my times not now
The alcohol did not kill me
But how

The I realise a dream that was not
And a year now has passed
Your cuddled in my arms
And no longer am I thrashed

I lay my head back down
And go back to sleep
I die happy and peacefully
Without saying A single peep