A Foggy Road Poem by Sweta Leena Panda

When I look back,
I see myself as an ambitious person,
Then I see at my current status,
I feel pity on myself,
I feel like I spoiled my life without any proper intention,
In past, I was juggling between my parents expectations and my dream,
On an average every Indiana family wants their daughter should get married at right age with good education,
After marriage you have to kill your dream,
The dream for which you sacrifice your teen age and enjoyable time,
If you want to enjoy your marriage life then people comment like you are enjoying on your husband's money,
If the marriage fails then everyone blame on you like,
Your life is nothing,
You did nothing,
Your guts feelings kill you inside in every minute,
What wrong you did,
You loved everyone,
You sacrifice what you can and could,
What else can someone do?
Alas! The stupid heart can't be so strong,
Either to support to her family or her dream,
It's a ship most of us dwell in the middle of the river,
Heart makes you emotional,
Makes you feel like it's your mistake,
You are doing injustice to all and spoiled everyone's life,
Mind alert to follow your dream,
Only you know,
Life is uncertain,
You spoiled your precious time,
In certain stage, it's difficult to reborn with a different dream and life,
It's a painful period, most of us come across,
I wish!
I'd never take some major steps in life,
I wish!
I'd never get married,
I wish!
I'd never ever had a dream,
I wish!
I'd never ever try to be a different person,
Sometimes I feel it's too late,
Sometimes I feel no, I still have time,
It's a blank road, which leads to no-where else,
In past, I tried to achieve my dream but failed,
On that day I realized I am different,
It's my personality which never let me to take the harsh steps,
That's the only reason why I always stay back,
I know my situation and life are not favorable towards me,
I am trying to make everything perfect,
Even though I am seeing a foggy road ahead,
Which leads to no-where else,
I don't know whether I can experience the same love ever again in life,
It's hurts every time,
I can't trust again even love again,
No matter how much I try,
I don't know whether I can reborn with a new dream with a new hope as a different person all together,
Everything seems like a dream,
I know I have to lead my life alone,
Without any expectation from anyone for the entire life,
This is my life,
I need to find a way to survive with pride!