A Feeling... Poem by Baden Ronie

It has been a long time since I put anything here...
But this is something I had to put into words....
Not so much a poem but something that I experianced.
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I wish I could give you the world....
I wish I could make it all right and give you everything you want...
But I cant...
And I hate that, I hate watching you cry, I hate watching you get sad or lonely and most of all, I hate knowing that I cant hold you, cant kiss you and make it all better.
But these things I accept and all that I can say, is that I miss everyday, and that no matter what you should never give up, because you deserve happiness.
You deserve the perfect guy who cares about, who makes everything better.

But I dreamed a dream, were I watched you with a guy, so close and so loving as you held him, and al II could think was.... It should be me.
It should be me there, holding you close and never letting the world get you down, but somewhere I screwed up and things got turned around and now your my best friend, the pain is still there but I lock it away and never say, I love you, I love you....I love you.

So these are my thoughts, laid out to bare, and what I ask is simple enough, now that you have read this, forget it all, pretend it never existed, that it never happened.
Because for all my feelings, for all that I care I know it's not enough, that I'm just a friend, maybe even a brother but never anything more.

This I accept, because I could never imagine not being there as your friend.

Someday you will find happiness, and I will be there watching, like I always have done and always will do...
Thinking it should be me.........