A Father's Grief Poem by Craig Mize

The tears fall from my eyes
Rolling down my cheeks,
And finally disappearing into my shirt.
I try to contain them,
But they refuse to stops falling
The pain is to intense, it's to much to bare;
I've felt loss before, but never like this.
Stuck in a state of confusion,
I'm steady asking the Lord why?
Why did it have to be you?
Why did it have to be this way?
Why wasn't I able to stop it?
Or was I?
Did I unknowingly ignore the signs?
The signs they were there all of the time.
Why didn't I see them, or notice them.
Did I turn a blind eye on the clues,
Clues that was hidden in plain sight.
Your cries for help went unheard,
The signs of depression ignored,
But your final message was heard
It was deafening but heard.
And most certainly felt.
I don't blame you though.
The blame goes to everyone else
And especially me. I blame myself.
I let you down, I failed you, I'm sorry
Please forgive me and understand this
I do love you.and will always love you
Even though I never told you.