Our souls, yet to have encountered, but I know you see it
I often wonder what goes through your mind on your most sleepless nights
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No one can ever love me
I am much too broken as broken can be
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Life in pink, or so they say
Because purple seems more like grey these days.
Lavender planted in garden at the front, along with the hyper leaves dancing in the sun
Strangely in the midst of this painful winters month
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Midnight in November 2084
What's it like to be sure about anything anymore?
Everyday there's nothing more
Than a screen blaring from nine to four.
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I will miss the sunsets
The sound of the wind
The smell of grass
And the smell of my favourite conditioner.
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I think of you often.
On my darkest mornings, my brightest nights. I think of you.
I think of you as I turn on my shower
As the warm water trickles down the edges of my porcelain skin.
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Finding comfort in the pain
All we had has gone down the drain.
Out of the ordinary to discover my identity in this rain
Tonight I will hit the right vein.
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Alone in the dark, all my monsters are hidden behind the doors
Waiting to catch me off guard
They will get me.
I cry in pain, my nightmare is real
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Months ago I found the life
That I refused myself because of spite.
What is where? I pulled my hair
Threw myself right from the stairs.
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Hopeless willowing,
it was me.
The clown on the moon,
they all did see.
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My Moon
Our souls, yet to have encountered, but I know you see it
I often wonder what goes through your mind on your most sleepless nights
To all the gifts in this world, the greatest are the stars tonight, that draw our future
Apart, at this night spent with melancholy. You are my comfort
My melancholy. You feel it, you see it
As I sit below the dark skyline, illuminated - I wear the moonlight like a silk vail
My mind writing these words I feel inside me. I know you feel it, please feel it
Let my pain be your guide, my tears be your trail, find me
I'm begging, hopeless and worn. My heart torn and thrown beside this road
Emptiness fills my eyes like constellations in the sky, my soul lost in each mystery dot
Silence, not a sound but the trees. A cureless disaster to embark
I need not. Like I need you. My peace, my destiny
Stargazzing, I look up and mediate to my mysterious fate
There has to be a time, perhaps an experience alike. Where you lay and ponder
I, your mystery. I know you felt this. My promise, your answer, our unborn
We will end up together, looking up at what was once written by the stars this night
In your arms I could die, I crave you like no other, My everything, my flame
Who needs the moon, when I have you.
My moon
As I sit below the dark skyline, illuminated - I wear the moonlight like a silk vail
I can promise you this is me at my worst, but not until I put this noose around me first. I can not escape this bed, from what all these thoughts put inside my head. All my nights weeping at the knees - I swear you are the worst disease