margaret atkinson

Light the candle, watch the flame
Feel the heat, sense the shame
Hide the cuts, cover despair
Dress up, then re-dye the hair
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deep in the utter silence, the darkness carassess me
i feel its coldness creep up like a lion creeps up on a lamb
its passion for blood like a madman, it just keeps wanting more
i find myself passionate for the utter silence of the darkness
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sitting in a room
a blade across my wrists
waiting for my doom
which death has brought with a cold kiss
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i wake up to the screams in my ear
i want them to leave but they always come nearer
i hate you, your ugly, and stupid they say
they sit there and just claw me away
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looking back on all we did, i remember very well
you were my childhood sweetheart as much as i could tell
as we grew older things got harder to keep you by my side
then you took miss susie snow to be your lawful wedded bride
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chaos overtakes me
everyone flees in agony
i fall in defeat for the battlefield inside me
i wonder if i will ever be free
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did it hurt when you fell from heaven
did it hurt when she broke your heart
did it hurt when you broke mine
i loved you so much it hurt inside
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Coldness of the mind
The string of life so fine
One stupid mistake and we're done
That's what we get for trying to have fun
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the next time it rains
feel the pain
of all the soldiers
loss and gain
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start a fire in the heart of the beast
and out of the ashes arrives a new me
the beast strives in me i must do its will
my hands are only made to kill
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look past this ugly face you see
past this shell of a coward
past this beaten, bruised, forgotten girl
can't you see i'm guilty
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forgive me, im falling, fading into nothingness
please save me, heaven is calling,
but hell is where i belong
lost, even to myself
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behind these brown eyes
darkness lies covered by hate, abuse, and pain
behind these brown eyes
my tear soaked battered wrists,
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dare i ask
dare i say
what made you this way
defeated and alone
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one perfect rose, the very best
everyone chooses the one's outside, afraid of all the rest
one perfect rose, full in bloom
that many people never know its doom
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i am quickly fading here then gone tomorrow
i wish my heart was filled with glee but instead its filled with sorrow
i am seperating myself from the world
i want to be myself not just some other girl
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silence overtakes her
people push her around and she is always silent
educated people tell her, her past was violent
but noone knows her like he does
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