Jessica Goodell

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Does he see me?
Actually see me for who I am?
I can't be sure.
He says he loves me,
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Why does he pull away from me?
What have I done?
What do I do now?
How do I make things better?
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Looking in the mirror what do I see?
I see a girl.
She's scared and putting herself through pain.
She goes on putting her mask together.
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A mother of five
Obsessed
Fun
Crazy
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She looks through the pictures,
And what does she see?
18 years of her oldest daughter.
It seemed like just yesterday
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Mothers are wise.
Mothers are caring.
Mothers are loving.
Mothers are forgiving.
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Mysterious
Over Protective
Teacher
Healer
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What happens now?
Baby on the way.
No money to help.
I'm so scared!
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He tugs
I pull
He screams
I yell
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Does he care?
He says one thing
But does another.
He knows it hurts me
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I lay here again.
Alone!
no sleep in sight.
Maybe I should cry again
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I lay awake
Thinking.
I try to unravel
Everything that has happened.
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Everyday of my life
I feel like a zombie..
Same routine
Just different date.
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Every little girl
Grows up to believe
That somewhere out there...
Somewhere there is a happy ending.
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Can't think
Can't sleep
Mind racing
Body aching
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An hour goes by
And then another.
I continue waiting
Wanting to hear his voice.
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Everyday of my life
I feel like a zombie.
Same routine
Just different date.
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Why does he pull away from me?
What have I done?
What do I do now?
How do I make things better?
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